2 minutes that might change your PERSPECTIVE

How come some of the rich and famous commit suicide, and some homeless people smile from ear to ear? One word: PERSPECTIVE

Are the lines straight or slanting?

You earn $1000 a month, you spend $500 a month, you feel you're doing well

You earn $10000 a month, you spend $9500 a month, you feel you're not doing well
- Both save $500 a month but why does it feel different?

You used to earn $200 a month, now you earn $3000 a month, you're feeling lucky
You used to earn $5000 a month, now you earn $3000 a month, you're feeling fucked

- Both earn $3000 a month but why does it feel different?

When you're dentist wears a mask, it's out of respect for his patients
When you don't want to wear a mask, it's your right

- Both are supposed to wear masks for others, why should it be different?

When you litter on the floor, it's fine, cause it's not your problem
When someone litters in your backyard, it's not okay
- Litter is litter, why would location make a difference?

A Muslim carries a gun, he's a terrorist.
A non-religious person carries a gun, he's exercising his rights
- Why should religion be the difference?

When an Asian eats durian it's disgusting
When an Asian refuses Blue cheese they have no class

- Okay, this is just me personally hating people calling food that they don't eat disgusting

When you needed money, I am the asshole for not lending
When I ask for my money back, I am the asshole for chasing
But when it's the other way round, I am the asshole for not paying

Sorry it got political and personal for a second LOL. Something more close to home for poker players

When you breakeven after you were winning feels like a loss
When you breakeven after you were losing feels like a win
- Both breakeven but why is it different?

When you have KK vs AA and you lose, it's a cooler
When you have KK vs AA, and flopped a set, and lose, it's a bad beat
- Both times you lost to AA, why should it be different?

If I lose to a guy I like, it's not too bad
If I lose to a guy I dislike, it hurts more

- Both lost the same amount but why does it feel different?

My point is if you look at everything closely, from all perspectives, it is all the same. There's always two sides of the story, sometimes more. And if you can see things always from the right perspective, you will be a happier person, and if all of us do that, the world would be a better place. If we learned to look at things from other perspectives, then we can empathize with others better.  

Something off topic, but did you know, if the whole world, and I mean the whole world and everyone in it, just stayed home and not go out for 14 days straight, then COVID would be over. Problem is there will always be the selfish ones who thinks the rules don't apply to them. 

What happened in October 2020

October was a rough month. My second losing month of the year and not a small amount too. So back to the drawing board and gonna have to grinding it back. When I last had a big losing month in May it took me 3 months to grind it back. 

Winning and losing is part of a poker player's life but if you ask me I don't consider myself a full time poker player anymore. I am not playing optimally, nor during optimal times, nor getting to select the games I want to play in. As a host I have other considerations other than winning, and most of the time I am juggling multiple tasks, stressing about the dynamics, answering messages, entertaining guests, it's hard for me to be playing mistake-free. Honestly I am happy breaking even if possible. 

My only big win of the month

This month has been the hardest for me not because of the losses, but of the drama and stresses I've had to deal with. So many things would keep me up at night and give me heartaches. So many of you have offered your concern and care after reading my posts. I am very touched and thankful. I am sorry to always share my problems with you guys but I also want to keep this blog as honest as possible. But poker life isn't as glamorous as most think. And the success rate isn't high either. First time in my life my body is telling me I have anxiety. I'm usually this carefree guy always laughing and smiling. I wouldn't believe that I have high anxiety myself. But the body doesn't lie. If you wanna know the details you can send me a private message. 

On the bright side, the club will be running our first tournament this Saturday. That should be lots of fun and laughs. I am looking forward to it. So far we have consistently ran a PLO game starting at 2pm without fail for 4 straight months. That's 120+ days in a row. I am really thankful for the support and care from our dear friends. We couldn't have done it without them all. 

After the session still hard at work

I was hoping to finally be able to take my first vacation in 8 months, maybe even sneak in some gym and pool time before work but my plans came crashing down. But I am not complaining. Years from now I would look back and enjoy the fruits of my labour. But when you're labouring hard you rarely have time to reflect and enjoy the process. However I choose to be thankful for the position I am in, in spite of all the shitty stuff I have to deal with.